Everything has a conclusion

Since I first started my first blog, many things have changed like my mentality, my perception of life, and most importantly my mindset. One of these changes was my perception of soccer, I thought I really liked playing soccer, but to be honest I noticed that I love playing soccer for fun because when someone doesn't trust me or doesn't have enough trust in me, soccer doesn't feel the same. However, thanks to soccer I got to meet new people, new places, and new experiences. One thing that I found out that I really don't like being alone because I really thought that I like being alone but actually I love being alone for a certain amount of time to meditate or dedicate time to myself, but being alone for more than a month is really something that I thought I would enjoy but actually is the opposite.

However, there have been good things despite the hard times. For example, meeting new people that some are really good friends that I hope to have in the future, and also having fun, having time to be alone and meditate, and it might have not been the best semester I ever had, but for sure is not the worst. I was able to meet new places like Prescott or Yuma, and my soccer season didn't end the way I wanted but I believe that better things are about to come. Thanks to soccer I was able to meet one of my idols which is a Honduran professional soccer player Roger Espinoza, which is a friend of my coach. I have enjoyed every single minute that I spend at school and with the team because those are unique experiences that you live just once in your life and there is no point in putting all my thoughts with the negative things. To support all of these things is the opinion of some of my closest friends and family, they said that it had been a good time for me, even when things didn't go as I thought they would. 

My mom in Honduras is having a really good time with the family and she's always saying people the good things that had happened to and I feel good when people say that they are proud of me, but they just see one part of the story but they don't some things that might not seem that cool. My mom says that to make everything better, she will bring me a lot of roquillas and hojaldras. 

I feel that this final blog so far feels like I'm finishing a cycle because these blogs had been there to help me out to sometimes let my emotions go just say what I want to say, a way to relieve myself. I know that some of my classmates are just doing the blogs for the credits and they might not care a lot, and to be honest, at the beginning I was doing it for credit too, but now I feel that these blogs had helped me to grow mentally and I see them differently. I might not be the best writer or the best one doing blogs but I really enjoyed doing them and I know that in the future when I looked back at them, flashbacks will come to me and they will make me remember and feel what I wrote in them. Maybe some people will say that this is kind of dumb but in my opinion, everyone sees things differently and everyone grows in a different way. 

I feel that my life so far has been like a roller coaster with a lot of ups and downs, but every moment I was trying to learn the good things from them. If I had to resume the best thing that had happened this year, it would be when I signed my contract for GCC, and the person who has been inspirational to me was Alberth Ellis. I know that there are better things that will come and I might not be ready for them, but I will try to enjoy them and learn from them because I know that those experiences will help me to grow as a better person and the things that had helped me to be where I'm, I will never forget them because thanks to all the things that happened either good or bad, I'm here thanks to them and if I could come back in future and change things, I would take the same choices I have taken because I would choose to be where I'm 100 times and I will never regret it. Some people would correct the mistakes that they have done but if they did that where would they be now? would they be happy? Everything is left to your opinion.

 

Being alone is not that bad

 This week has been a really awkward week, and the particular reason for this is because my parents left me for a whole month by myself. My mom had to attend some important appointment in Honduras but I couldn't go because of school and soccer. I feel really glad for her because she hasn't been there in 16 years, but at the same time, I feel a little alone now that I'm home alone as in the movie lol (Home Alone). My cousin is here too but he's working and it doesn't feel the same because he doesn't spend much time at home and when he is here, he is always with his girlfriend which is not bad but I feel lonely sometimes because my mom and I were almost all the time at home and now is just me and my cat. 

Now I know how this guy felt lol 

My friend said that I should be happy and I really am, but the only thing that they don't see is that I would like to be with her too. Now, I have a lot of time to meditate and be alone which is good but sometimes I get bored, and one thing I do to distract myself is doing community service for my scholarship and for fun. Where I go to do community service is in Halo Animal Rescue at Scottdale, and doing this, makes me feel better because I enjoy spending time with animals, and to be honest is a good way to release stress and have some fun, because who doesn't like puppies and kitties? The only negative thing about this is that I get too attached to the pets and sometimes I want to take them home with me but I can't lol :'(. 

Some people say that I should take advantage of being alone but to be honest, I will rather be alone than making a party, not because I don't like them, but because I don't feel like it. My cousin thinks that I'm depressed but I believe that is just because I'm alone most of the time, also some friends stopped talking to me, which now that I think about it, they don't seem like real friends now. Things are a little different now but I think that is for a good reason, but like always, new things are difficult to adapt to. I believe that I will just have to live one day at a time, not thinking about what will happen tomorrow just enjoying what I have now and ignoring the negative things. 

Now that I have a lot of time to be alone at home, I might try to find new hobbies or maybe just try to enjoy the things that my mom used to enjoy at home, like watering the plants. I will be in my mom's shoes for a while, which is going to be a good way to get out of my comfort zone, which is something good to do once in a while. I will probably don't have much time to be with my friends which some people will say that it shouldn't be like that but, I just want to take a break from my routine and try new things or stop doing some things for a while and see how I'm going to be. Maybe these are some obstacles that life is putting in my way to make me stronger which I love challenges and this one is going to be one of the hardest, in my opinion, but the impossible things are more likely to achieve than we think.